It's da shoes...

A couple of hours ago I came out of the train station from working out. I saw 2 fire trucks race by me and I thought wouldn't that be some shyt if my building was on fire. As I walked closer I noticed that the fire trucks stopped on my corner. My heart starts racing a little faster. I turned the corner and I saw all the fire men running into my building! Like a dayum fool I run in with them. The only thing I could think of was..Lawd not my shoes!! I smelled smoke but the firemen were running upstairs so I thought I have time. I live on the first floor. I flew into my apt. and grabbed three suitcases and filled them with my favorite shoes,some work clothes, jeans,passport(where the hell was I going)laptop, Barack the Vote tee and my voter registration card! Ha-ha beyatches even if my house burnt the hell down I was going to vote for Barack! As I'm packing I keep running to the door and feeling it..you know like you learned in elementary school. I said if that beyatch gets warm I'm tossing my luggage and me out the window! Needless to say I'm ok and it was a small fire upstairs! Whew at least my shoes would have been ok!

Powell endorses Obama!!!!

"Former Secretary of State Colin L. Powell endorsed Senator Barack Obama for president on Sunday morning, calling him a “transformational figure” who has reached out to all Americans with an inclusive campaign and displayed “a steadiness, an intellectual curiosity” and “a depth of knowledge” in his approach to the nation’s problems.

“The endorsement, on the NBC public-affairs program “Meet the Press,” was a major blow to Senator John McCain, who has been a good friend of Mr. Powell’s for decades. Mr. Powell, a Republican, has advised Mr. McCain in the past on foreign policy.

“Mr. Powell told Tom Brokaw, the host of “Meet the Press,” that he had been disturbed in recent weeks by the negative tone of Mr. McCain’s campaign, particularly its focus on Mr. Obama’s passing relationship with William Ayers, a 1960s radical and founder of the Weather Underground. The McCain campaign has sought to promote the idea that Mr. Obama is “palling around with terrorists,” in the words of Mr. McCain’s running mate, Governor Sarah Palin, because of Mr. Obama’s weak links to Mr. Ayers.

“Mr. McCain says that he’s a washed-out terrorist,” Mr. Powell said. “Well, then, why do we keep talking about him?"

I'm not surprised at all by this endorsment. When Colin left office he was hot with "W" and all that went on with the war. I think McCain thought he would get his endorsment because of the military connect....he was wrong! As usual people are now saying he endorsed Barack because he's black! What do YOU think?

Weekend wrap up...

This weekend was an interesting weekend. Friday was uneventful I kept my ass in the house and was sleep by 11:30. Saturday morning woke up and chilled. Then the Teacher called me and asked me about the brunch spot I always go to and what train to take from his house because he didn't want to drive. I was thinking I know this dude is not going to my brunch spot! I was semi hot but I can't say shyt 'cause we aren't together anymore! Then he said lets meet at 3:15. Aruuuuuuuuuuuuu? Me, the devil herself...you want to meet me? He said Shell stop playing who else would I go there with! So, I went and met him and he almost walked right past me because he didn't know about the addition of hair! He gave me a big hug(lawd he smelled so dayum good.. I wanted to lick his neck...hehehe)and told me he really liked my highlights. I was like you don't notice anything else he said no! Man, men are so stoopit! I said hello my hair is longer! Geesh! Anyway we went out to lunch and had good conversation...good lawd I could barely eat my food. I wanted to take the guacamole and rub it off of him! His arms are so yummy! I seriously wanted to just throw the food off the table and say "Take me here and now!" We spent three hours together and it was cool! I dropped him off at his sisters house and he kissed me like we were still together! All in all it was good date...maybe there will be more! I can't call it!

After I dropped him off I had to hurry and go to a dinner for one of the trainers at bootcamp! As I was walking in the trainer said Chocolate how are you thanks for coming then he says ohh Shell you too! Well Chocolate is the dude from the gym that asked me out! I was a little disturbed with him because he asked if he could make me dinner and I said cool. He called me Friday at work and I called him back and left a message. This beyatch didn't even call me back! That's a quick way to get fired from my life! I can't stand people who don't honor what the hell they said they were going to do! So, Chocolate sits across from me and I hit him with the ice grill! He was like what is wrong with you! He's kicking me under the table and shyt! I finally told him! He was like I'm sorry Shell my phone is dead...he hands me his phone and it's off! I say whatever! He said no seriously the phone won't hold a charge and I haven't made it to the T-Mobile store. He said he tried to buy a $5 charger from the Africans but it still didn't work! Whateva! So, I had to get out of the dinner and head to Harlem and meet up with Eb,Miz and the group! So, he told me he knew a short cut next thing you know Chocolate is in my car with me! Of course I got there late and everyone was outside! I thought I told Eb that I was not with the Teacher...she gets in my car and said so what grade do you teach...bwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahhaa! Hilarious!! All in all it was a great Saturday. I met great people, Capcity, Shleatha, Miz and her daughter and of course EB!! I ended up with Chocolate and Eb at IHOP and then back to BK to Chocolate's house(which is fabulous)! He was a perfect gentleman! But I still have a Love Jones for the Teacher...lol! But chocolate will see me again!!

Random Shyt......

Why the hell did I see a dude in a purple(like Barney)zoot suit! You want to talk Hot ASS MESS! I dropped my camera so I'm without a camera for a week Uggg!

I saw an Asian lady at church on Sunday. She knew all the songs more than the black folk!!

Did anyone see this weeks Newsweek with Palin on it. It's a close-up of her and she has some serious lip hair! Wax or thread it lady! Fricken lumberjack!

I don't have children and ALOT of my friends are married with kids but I don't think it's ok for my girl to send 195 pictures of her kids! WTF? That shyt is soo rude to me! My bff has two kids and she sends at the most 4 pics!

I don't think physical therapy is helping my knees. Don't know if I told y'all but my kneecaps sit extremely high so my femur is putting pressure on it when I walk down stairs, squat or do lunges. If I can't build up my hip flexor muscle then I will need surgery. Which means that my doctor would fracture my knee cap and bring it down..rehab it for 4-5 months and do it again. I think that seems painful as hell! We'll see. My left ankle is reconstructed so I have a high threshold for pain!

Did anyone watch Hip Hop Honors? I'm not a Too Short fan but damn NY we could have given him more love than that! The audience was HORRIBLE to him! Juelz Santana didn't know all the words on the Slick Rick tribute...*sigh* At least Busta and Ghost were good!

I promised myself I would pack lunch all week. I didn't cook shyt last night so I got up this morning and sauteed chicken and shrimp and tossed it with Penne pasta, sauteed onions and red peppers in a fire roasted pepper alfredo! I'm so dope in the kitchen!! LOL! That was at 8am!

My daddy called me today cause he was concerned that I might be laid off due to the fact I work at an investment bank! I know my cheap ass father he just wanted to make sure he wouldn't have to pay off anything for me...lol!

My sister and I got into a heated debate over her just poppin up on my nephew. She said it was ok because she pays his tuition...WTF? I said it won't be alright when you try that shyt again and you see tits and hair! She shut the f&ck up then...lol!

Been talking to the Teacher on the regular but haven't seen him since August 20! He told me last night that he's afraid to give me lots of attention cause he thinks that he'll lose focus of the prize...his masters. He should graduate in August. I said cool. I'm not even mad at him. I will be entertaing dating offers!

I got a weave! LOL! I've never had one before. I think it looks cute(I'll post pics) but damn it was expensive as shyt! I spent $300 on hair alone! It's funny how a little hair makes men act! Dudes are really hollarin hard! LOL!!

I go to fitness and I peeped a cutie in there awhile back but I'm not one to holla and I was dating the Teacher but you can look. Well he started talking to me and my girl a little. Then he came up to me and said he saw me out with my girls and I looked very different...uhh I guess since my hair is not in a ponytail and I have normal clothes on!! Anyway he told my girl to tell me he's a good dude! LOL! That was a few weeks ago. I saw him last night and I was like man he's a cutie. He watched our class because he was taking the class after mine. So we talked after class and he walked me outside. Well we started talking and he offered me a ride home. So we ended up sitting outside my house talking for 2.5 hours! He asked me out. I said maybe! Man he's swexy! There's something yummy about him! LOL!

Why did this chick at my job where Timbs today....ALL DAY! No, it wasn't wife beater. This chick had on black pants and a black shirt with some Timbs! WTF? You think that's ok? We work on the same floor as GENERAL COUNSEL!

I have a friend that's married. She's only 27 will be 28 at the end of the month. Been married for a year. Why every time her and husband get into an argument she takes off her rings! WTF? I tell her that the rings are symbolic of the marriage. She doesn't care just takes them off and says divorce is always an option! Really? You go into marriage thinking that way. Oh well maybe it's just me!

I'm going to be a super sexy Cleopatra for Halloween!

I'm so feeling that Jazmine Sullivan cd!

So next weekend I'm going home(upstate NY..suburb outside of Buffalo)and guess who will be there! My very first HS boyfriend. He was FINE when we were younger I saw him back in 02 but I will be seeing him again. My BFF thinks there will be a love connect and we will end up kissing! LOL! I don't know why she thinks this way. I guess she thinks she knows me since we've been friends since we were 3! I can't see it happening!

I know what I'm about to write is so NOT funny but I couldn't help but laugh my ass off when I first heard it! Apparently my boy from back home gave his mom his old car. Well she was having a problem with the car. I guess it was popping out of gear! So her house is on a hill so she parked it on the street. She got out and looked for a rock to put under one of the front tires. She bent over and was putting the rock under the front wheel and the car popped out of gear and ran her head over!!! I know that shit IS NOT FUNNY but when my friend told me the story I busted out laughing! I am sooo wrong! She was seriously injured and had to be air lifted to a Trauma Center she had a bleed on her brain. But she is ok so it's ok to laugh!

Ok I think you've read enough of my random shyt! LOL

Trying to get up

I haven't felt like blogging let alone doing shyt. I get up go to work, go to the gym and go home. I barely talk on the phone(although I think I made up for my lack of talking on the phone last night. I was on the phone until 4am!)I'm in such a funky azz mood which is soo unlike me! I'm always the one that's upbeat, fun, life of the party. Now, I barely want to be at the party! There are a few reasons that are dragging me into this funk:

1. Not feeling my job. It pays the bills but I've gone as far as I can. I realize that people are just doing the same shyt they were doing when they first started and it's ok for them but not for the kid! I've been here a little over two years and I think I need to start planning to move on up. The main concern is I want to completely leave this field. I need to research how to go about this which leads to my second funk.

2.Going back to school. I've been wanting to go to business school for the past few years but I've yet to take the GMAT(what the f&ck am I waiting for?)this is the year that I thought I would take it and now the economy decides it wants to tank so the applications for buisness school will be up at least 60% *sigh*. I want to go full time too. Quit this beyatch and get my full time study on! I really don't have any bills. No student loans(thanks mom and dad)car is paid off. Just misc bills, gas, light, cable and shoes! The more I've been thinking. I think that I should probably take the LSAT to cover both sides and apply for a JD/MBA program. So, when I'm finished I will be a motherf*ckin force! So, you ask what is my problem why am I just sitting on my ass? If you find the answer please let me know! I have all the books. I'm just not motivated to study. But I know I want to do this! What the eff is holding me back?

3.Relationship. I firmly believe when something makes you fall it's all about the bounce back. Three years ago I was on track to get married have family etc. I moved to Houston from DC to start that chapter of my life. When that relationship was over. I swear I never felt that kind of devestation. I left with my car packed to the rim and sent boxes to my parents house and set off for the Big Apple. I had no job, just my cousin and some college friends. I came here on faith. I felt if I can make it in NY I can make it anywhere. It's been three years and it was a hard road for the first three months but I managed to get a dope azz apt in Bed-Stuy and met some pretty good friends. I've dated here and there but I've been leary until I met "The Teacher" We both have our flaws but he's genuine, kind, funny and sexy!(Having a 8 pack is ALWAYS nice to touch...lol)But we just can't get it right. It has nothing to do with cheating or any triflin thing like that! His damn family drama is DEEP! And he has the save the world mentality! I give this background because I haven't been moved by someone like this since the dude I was going to marry! A month ago The Teacher and I called it quits. He told me that my mouth was reckless(I do pop mad shyt)and he was going to bring me all my shyt. He was suppose to bring it all to me on September 28. Needless to say I'm still waiting for it! I really just want my pan back...lol! Last Tuesday he called me out of the blue. I looked at the phone like it was crazy when it was ringing! We haven't spoke verbally in a month just a few text! So to my surprise he calls me and tells me in this round about way that he was shedding the family drama cause it was causing him to lose everything and it was taking everything thing out of him. I just sat there and let him talk then he asked if I could help him do something. I was like ARRRUUUUU? Me? He said yes, you're the only person I want to help me. I said ohhh! The entire hour convo he never mentioned our break up, nothing! Then he called me the next morning at 7:33 to tell me something that happened in his family cause he said he knew I'd get it and could appreciate it. Again nothing about the break up! Friday rolls around he text me a few times then asked if I was watching the debates then proceeds to call me...heyy wait a minute now! I told him I had to call him back because I was out for dinner and drinks. About four hours pass and he calls me back and ask if I was ok and if I made it home. I told him I'd be home in 20 minutes and called him back. I talked to him from 1:43-3:30 about the state of black marriages. WTF? We talked briefly on Saturday..yet another family crisis. I know wtf? Yesterday we spoke like three times and text like 20 times. By yesterday's convo I came to the conclusion that he's trying to get back in...slowly! But he can't come back without a long talk. Man, I don't know why I have this thing for him. I can't shake his azz!I had a chance to get back with the dude I was going to marry and said nope. And I thought he was the love of my life but I think the Teacher will leave a bigger impact than him. In the past I'm known to be like peace and keep it moving but I have a soft spot for The Teacher. *sigh*

Kyle what are your thoughts as a man...lol!

Sorry for the long drawn out post.

Random...

This is some random ish that either happened to me or I have observed or thougght over the last week.

I'm on the train and there's white lady about 45-50. She was crackish looking. She had on blue scrubs with paint splashes a tee shirt that says "Hot Girls Vote" and a zip up hoodie that says "Soulja Boy Tellum". Words cannot explain how hard I was laughing at this ish!

Dude with a big azz neck brace on kept giving me the "come get em eyes" For real so I can drop kick you in your neck and have you in straight traction!

Dude says to me "I think I know you" I said no you don't. I have seen him around the neighborhood before. The bullshyt started. "Man, I like the fire in your eyes ma, that says to me independent" Oh word cause they're about to shoot fire in about 30 seconds! This fool says I like independent women cause I'm independent...WTF? Then he says you look like you work out. We can go to the park and run together. At this point I say my bf wouldn't like that. He says oh I just want to be friends. Then proceeds to tell me about how some chick told him that she just wanted to be friends and next thing he knows they're effin. *crickets* I just walked away. He yells I guess we can't be friends! I guess not!

Why the F%&k did I have to be at work this morning at 7:30! I usually don't get here until 9:30-10:00. I get out of the shower at 8:45! Not happy!

I hate dudes that have beards that look like little "Nigga Naps" that real coarse curly tight hair. YUCK! When I see a dude that has that shyt on his face the only thing that I can think about is that they have dirty nuts! Example of dirty nut or stank nut dudes...Shawn Kemp...blahhh his nuts just look stank and hot! Charles Oakley..stink nuts! Definition of stink or dirty nuts is even if you take a shower there is no cleaning up the nut area! Just STANK!

To me Keisha Cole looks like she has stank coochie! She just looks dirty to me! I know I'm a weirdo but oh well!

I still haven't spoke to "The Teacher" it's kind of upsetting to me! I thought we were better than this! He does text me periodically. When we had our beef a few weeks back he did tell me that he was bringing over my stuff immeadiately. I have yet to see it!

I think I have a ghost in my house. My toothbrush was moved and then put back in the same place. I walked around yesterday with a butcher knife! LMAO like I was going to stab the ghost! bwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahaha!

Why the eff did my sister, her stupid azz husband and my 13year old nephew just show up at my older nephew's dorm room yesterday morning? I called my nephew just to say hey and he said "my mom's here" I said, "oh she came to visit" He said "yep, and I wasn't expecting them" I could here in his voice that he was tight! I said,"oh she called you from outside" He was like "nah, I woke up to a knock on the door" I said "WTF?" I told my sister I hope the next time you do that he has a chick laid up in the bed. Anytime my sister tells me she is going to visit him I'm telling him. He's such a good kid and who the hell wants your fam just doing random pop ups. They had to drive over 2 hours to get there too! The sad thing is dumb and dumber felt like that was ok!

Why the hell did someone just send an email stating that they need some data by the end of business today. I politely said it wouldn't happen. I know the routine they didn't just find out they needed that data today at 10:30. I'm sure they knew last week and chose not to say shyt. Well, they won't get shyt from me today!

That "So Fly" song by Slim and Young Joc is FIYAH!

This is how I feel right now.....

Hopefully I will feel better soon! I'm about 5 seconds from the deepend!