Ninety days of me!!

I guess I run in three month increments. LOL! Last time I posted was in December and today I'm talking about something that is three months away. Exactly THREE months from today(June 28) I will be be 40! Yup, 40 y'all. According to most folks I don't look a day over 30! Yay me!! For some reason I'm not too freaked out by it. Yeah, I'm NOT married(and have NO prospects) I don't have ANY kids because I'm NOT married. And I have NOT finished my MBA. But with those three negatives I'm good with my life. It hasn't gone exactly the way I planned but it has gone the way it was supposed to go. These next three months are going to be completely dedicated to ME! I will be hitting the streets a little more,traveling and doing anything I want(what's new)! Oh yeah I'm also running my first half marathon on April 15(I will go more in detail about that in another post). So I'm putting everyone on notice for these next three months! It's all about ME! If y'all are in NYC on June 23 hit me up and come to my party!

I Know How She Feels

Hello! Hello out there! I know it's been nine months. Hell in that amount of time I could have pushed out a kid! I DID NOT do that by the way. I don't know what happened. Summer,my birthday and one too many happy hours! I've had so much to say too!
One story in particular has brought me back to blogland. I don't know if y'all have heard about this story but when I read it it reminded me of my own childhood especially since it's about 40 miles from where I grew up.

Tyra Batts is the ONLY black girl on her basketball team at Kenmore East High School(about 10 miles outside of Buffalo, NY). This is her first year on the team. For the past few years the team would ask the coach to leave so they could have a team "prayer." This prayer consisted of a chant that said, "1,2,3 Niggas" Tyra objected to this chant, telling the other girls it's an offensive term. These girls looked at her and said it wasn't geared towards her and they're not racist. The next day one of the very same girls who said she wasn't racist and took part in the chant called Tyra a "black piece of shit." Tyra did not do anything at that point and waited till Monday and punched the girl. Tyra was automatically given a five day suspension until administrators found out what started the fight. Both girls were given a two day suspension. The remainder of the team has to serve a one game suspension. The game that was to occur today was postponed(it was against my old high school). Also they have to undergo cultural sensitivity and the superintendent gave back the leadership award the school received.

This story touched me because I KNOW what it's like to be the only black girl in the class room and on a team. I grew up about 40 miles away from where this occurred. I've been called Nigger by mostly boys but some girls did try and get brave and yell it from a car but I found out who they were and an ass beating ensued. I don't condone violence but it's how we had to handle some shit. I was the whoop ass, ask questions later type chick. I let it be known as early as 2nd grade I wasn't standing for that type of shit. It just was NOT going to go down in front of me. NO ONE on any team I played on would ever be so brazen to blatantly disrespect me with me standing there. It just wasn't going to happen.

We as black people really need to curtail the use of the N word ESPECIALLY in front of white people. Most of these young girls didn't think there was anything wrong with using it because they hear it said by so many of us as a term of endearment. I don't think the word should be used by us but I DEFINITELY don't want to hear it out of the mouths of white people! I heard it one too many times in my younger years and had one too many fights.

We have to do better y'all!
http://www.bing.com/videos/watch/video/high-school-suspends-basketball-players-for-offensive-chant/6cxiu1q

Happy Birthday to me!!!

As usual i'm late. My birthday was June 28. I gave myself a kick ass rooftop party on Saturday and flew to Costa Rica on Monday. I've been here for a day and it's beautiful and just what I needed. I'm sitting in this beautiful upgraded room they gave me sippin on some champagne and eating strawberries! Ahh they made me feel special!

On another note. The Teacher came to my bday party and FINALLY got it right! He gave me two cards,one handwritten note and a pair of GUCCI sunglasses. I didn't really need the glasses but they're nice as hell! The note was so thoughtful. He basically said how much he loves me but can't express himself! *sigh* The African was there too but I played it off good! LOL! I'm a pimp! Hehehe!

Anyway I hope everyone enjoys their week and has a happy and safe 4th of July! I know I will be drinking,chillin or zip lining thru the rainforest!

Is it time?

Is it time to leave the US for overseas? I've always wanted to live overseas for a year or two but haven't really put in effort into researching the possibilities. My company is headquartered in Germany. When I lived in Houston the company I worked for was based out of India. These last few weeks I'm watching a lot of my friends and coworkers leave for overseas. Could I be next? I mean I'm not opposed. I'm not married I don't have any children and my parents are in pretty good health. At this point in my life I don't even have a significant other. I want out of my job and what a great start it would be in another country! I really need to think and pray on this!

My homeboy left this morning for Dubai. He quit working at my company last year because he said there was more to life than working 18hr days! So, he quit. He chilled, traveled and took a 4 month consulting job in Jamaica. He started to seriously look for a new job about 6 weeks ago and he lands at a company based out of Dubai! He's agreed to stay for a minimum of 18mos. I WILL BE GOING TO VISIT HIM NEXT YEAR! Dubai is on my bucket list! Two of my coworkers moved to Hong Kong. J left our firm because MS was paying him big bucks to go to Hong Kong. He only had to commit for one year! R is leaving Friday for Hong Kong and she stayed with the firm but just took another job! She's my favorite person at work plus she writes my reviews! I've watched her have so much anxiety over the last month about the move and if she's doing the right thing etc. She already lived in London ten years ago but came back when her father passed away! She said she's giving it one year. If she likes it she'll stay if she doesn't she's out and she may change her profession altogether and move back to the states and settle down in LA! My other homeboy A quit working last week. He was passed up for MD and said that made him re-evaluate his life. So, he quit last week and is moving to LA to do something on the business end of fitness(what better place to go). He has NO job,is subletting a place for 60 days and is going to figure out what he wants to do! He has a daughter who just finished her freshman yr at pretty prestigious college. He told me has her tuition covered for the next four years along with plenty of stacked paper. He said if he's not worried he can always go back to what he was doing. Plus he has excellent academic pedigree(US Naval Academy and Harvard Business School). Last but not least a blogger buddy named Arnetta is moving to Japan tomorrow to teach English for a year!

I wish I would've done this earlier in my life but I was too busy traveling and partying! I definitely have to think long and hard if this is something I want to pursue. Or is it that I want out of my job and I'm thinking of anything. I think the international experience would be so fly! What say you? If you had the chance would y'all move overseas?

Time flys..

I haven't blogged in a month! I don't know why. I have plenty of drafts and ideas I just haven't pressed send. I've read other blogs and commented but have neglected my own. I'll be back tomorrow with a full post. I already know the topic!

To Crack or Not to Crack

I'm trying to decide if I should go back to the creamy crack or just keep the chemical out of my head. June will be two years without the crack and while my hair is healthy, no breakage etc. When I had the creamy crack my hair was healthy and no breakage AND I color my hair. I've never had a problem with a relaxer. My hair didn't break off and it wasn't dry etc. The only reason I didn't get a relaxer was back in September of 08 I got my first weave so my hair was all braided up. So when I took the weave out everyone said you should just leave your hair with no relaxer.

As of right now I'm leaning towards getting a relaxer in two weeks. I go to the gym almost everyday. Even though I tie my hair down. I still have to flat iron my edges and sometimes roots. If not I will look like a damn Chia Pet! If I didn't go to the gym as often as I do then I can maybe see not putting the cream in my head but since I'm not one to wear twist outs and shyt I just don't think it's working out for the kid. Even back when I did get relaxers I only got 2 per year. Hell, I didn't get my first relaxer until I was 19. I guess if I had a bad experience then I would view them differently. Like I said I have permanent highlights and would relax my hair and absolutely no damage.

So, do y'all relax your hair? Tell me your hair stories!

A few reasons why we're at 16.5%

I was looking at the unemployment stats and it says that the unemployment rate is 9.7% BUT for blacks the unemployment rate is 16.5%!! It's historical that blacks have always had a higher rate of unemployment compared to the rest of America but this is just ridiculous. It's almost double. I know we're barely coming out of a recession but that number is unacceptable. I think I have a few reasons why a few of my people are unemployed.

My people when you get a call for an interview at a MAJOR investment bank please dress accordingly. I don't care if it's in the mailroom,cafeteria, administrative assistant or lawyer. PUT ON A DAMN SUIT! It doesn't have to be an Armani suit but wear a suit. Women if you decide to wear a skirt please make sure I can't see the dimples in your ass! That's what they make Spanx for. Comb your damn hair and tame down the weave. Leave the excess perfume at home and for the love of God cut your damn monster claws down and paint them a normal damn color. People don't want to see nails 4 inches long with nail art.

I know some people are not raised to know what is appropriate wear etc but I think you have no excuse when you're over 25 and I don't care what your family life was like. If you can text, tweet and look on the internet you can Google what's appropriate wear to an interview.

One of my close girlfriends is a Senior Manager at a biotech firm. Her area is all of NYC,Long Island and Northern Jersey. She has 6 reps under her and NOT one black. During the interview process she always interviews black because like my profession their aren't a lot of US. BUT she hasn't been able to hire a single black person because of straight foolishness. People coming completely unprepared for the interview, inappropriately dressed, not knowledgable on the subject matter and of course LATE! The last dude she interviewed was ONE HOUR late. So after the dude interviewed with the other members of her team. She called him in and asked him if he thought it was appropriate to come to an interview an hour late and dude was like I thought it was at this time and she said how when I sent you a confirmation email and you confirmed. She told him how she just couldn't hire him because he would be a reflection of her.

The few things I listed are some of the reason that black people are unemployed. These reasons are NOT the only reasons but they damn sure are some of them. Oh yes and please stop putting your kids at a disadvantage with names like Quay'Kanisha, J'Terria, Mu'Funkay and Quaku. I know we like to be different but make the middle name different!

I think as a whole we can do better. Not because Obama is President but because we should want to do better for ourselves. Yes, this is a recession, times are hard, companies aren't hiring like they used to BUT you need to fight for that position. Remember if a white person is giving 100% we need to give %125!

I Keep Slippin...

Why do I keep talking to this man? In my post on January 7. I stated that me and The Teacher were over and it had to stop. I siad my heart and my head were both in the same place. I swear y'all that's what I think. If that's so true why did I go to dinner with him on Saturday evening? He called and asked me if I'd like to meet him at our favorite spot for dinner. I said sure! WTF??? I must say I wasn't all warm and fuzzy inside when I saw him but when we were about to sit and he took off his jacket! LAAAAAWD HAVE MERCY! His shoulders look so delicious and I know what was underneath that sweater. He works out all the time and his abs look like this.

I will say that I didn't even have the urge to rub up on his stomach. Because lawd knows I love touching that washboard! LOL! Anyway our dinner was cool and we had good conversation. Neither one of us brought up our seperation. I had no intention on talking about it because I wanted a casual dinner and didn't want to go to the F_uitlist's party in a bad mood. I went out on a date with some dude that showed a tiny bit of promise but that's a NO go(That's a story for another day), I'm still going to continue to keep my options open but can't help but be slightly curious about The Teacher and his actions!
He always tells me I'm his Nina and he's my Darrius. Could that be true?

My Goals for 2010

I FAILED miserably on my 2009 goals. Out of 9 goals I only accomplished 1! That shyt is unacceptable! These are goals to be and not resolutions. I just slacked all the way around. But this year will be different and I know this. I'm really going to hold myself accountable. So here are my goals that I will achieve this year:

1. Read the Bible- Like I stated last year. I found a program that guides you to read the Bible in 365 days. So, far it's going well. I will NOT fail at this one again this year. I have time to party then I have time to read the Bible.

2.Run 3 5k's- I had this on my goal list last year and you guessed it. I didn't do it! Laziness. PURE DAMN LAZINESS! It's not like I didn't work out. I just didn't train for the runs! But I will this year. I actually FEEL like running now. I'm starting to feel that competitive gene pop up!

3. Tithe more- I didn't do that. But like I said about the Bible. If I can go out and spend money on drinks and eating out. Surely I can tithe more.

4.Stick to my budget- I have several accounts. One of them is for down payment for my condo another is a vacation one another is emergency money. I need to stick to my guns about these budgets.

5. Take another big trip. Last year I went to Barcelona and Italy so this year needs to be somewhere just as fly. I know I'm going to Costa Rica for my birthday but I don't consider that a big trip! I'm thinking Greece!

6. Work on letting shyt go. Sometimes you just have to walk away from certain situations.

7. Work on having more patience. I'm a very impatient person and it shows in my attitude.

8. Try not to get mad when I think someone should be doing something. Not everyone handles things the way I would.

9. Keep volunteering. That's the one thing I did consistently last year. I'm still doing. I tutor a great teenager named Victor who's going to do big things in life! He's so smart!

10. STOP BEING A PROCRASTINATOR! This is MAJOR for me! I'm the worst. I wait to the last minute to do everything. I'm actively trying to stop that behavior!

Attitude

I had an ex boyfriend who would always say "Your attitude determines your altitude." This quote makes so much sense to me. If you're going to have a stink azz attitude you're not going to get very far. Be it your job, relationships or life in general. I think all of us have needed a little bit of attitude adjustment. I know I have. My mom used to tell me as a child that "My mouth and attitude would over power my azz!" I still laugh about that to this day. Because not only did she tell me that but her hand or belt was stingin my azz!

Last week I was at the gym I was taking a strength and conditioning class. The instructor asked someone to please remove their IPod so they could hear the instruction and know the proper form to lift the weights etc. You would have thought the instructor told this chick that she was fat and ugly the way this chick carried on. She was snapping her head, rolling her eyes and sucking her teeth. Now was all that shyt necessary? He just asked you to remove your Ipod for HIS class. WTF? I speak to this lady at the gym and I've seen her have attitude with people before for no apparent reason. I also over heard her tell her girlfriend that she was no longer going to class because she missed to many and it didn't matter because her sleep did. Mind you she needs this class to keep her job. So her girl asked her what are you going to do? Attitude chick said umm I guess take it in January.
After I witnessed her attitude with the instructor and heard her say this. I thought of the quote "Your attitude determines your altitude." Because this chick can't go far in life with that attitude. I don't care if she's the smartest person on her team. Her promotions will be few and far in between.

It upsets me because she was black. I think as black people we can do better than that. The "man" isn't always trying to hold us back. With this stink azz attitude you're holding yourself back! I love my people and I want for us to do better as a whole but when you have a stink azz attitude you're not helping ANY of us! I'm far from perfect and I KNOW I can demonstrate major attitude but I also know when to check that shyt!

Do y'all know anyone who has a lot of potential but they're not going far in their job or relationships because of attitude?

On Vacation

The time has FINALLY come for my vacation! I'm flying to Barcelona tonite and will be there for the weekend. Tuesday I will be in Malta from there Rome, Florence and Naples. I CAN'T WAIT! I NEED this vacation so bad. While I'm away it will give me time to sort my thoughts on many things going on in my life right now and to take in the landscape of these beautiful places! This will be a fun and relaxing trip but major decisions will be made. My life will probably be very different when I get back!

I hope you guys have a great 10 days without me! Be Safe!

I Know Now

So, I got the results back from my MRI. I have Meniere's Disease, also called idiopathic endolymphatic hydrops which is a disorder of the inner ear. The cause is unknown but it probably results from an abnormality in the fluids of the inner ear. The theory is that too much inner ear fluid accumulates either due to excess production or inadequate absorption. The symptoms are episodic vertigo(I never experienced that)hearing loss(have that)tinnitus(roaring or buzzing in ear...I have this)and a sensation of fullness in the ear(have that).

The doctor I went to is the best Dr. in NYC so I feel confident in his finding but I did get a second opinion and the results were the same. There's not much I can do about it. The treatment for now is a low salt diet(umm I'm black), no caffeine( I can do that)some special type of vitamins and water pills. The pamphlet says no alcohol but my doctor didn't mention that so I'm going to act like I didn't read that...bwaaaaaaaaahhahaha! I always said I'm not going to stop drinking until the doctor tells me I have to! And since he didn't tell me, I ain't stoppin'! LOL! They also found a cyst in my gland in my brain. This has nothing to do with my ear problem *sigh* they just happened to spot it. The cyst is filled with fluid that they believe is benign, so now I have to go to a Neurologist.

Anyway, I feel good. I can hear this week(hearing loss is intermittent)and I think I'll be ok. Thanks to all of you that kept me in your prayers!

Happy Labor Day everyone! I doubt I'll write another post! Y'all know how NYC is Labor Day Weekend is with the West Indian Parade and all the shenanigans that come along with it! Have a great weekend! Be Safe!

Lies Lies Lies

How do you get past the fact that someone extremely close to you lied? In my opinion there's nothing worse than a liar and a thief.

My bf thinks I'm blowing this a little out of proprotion but understands where I'm coming from. I've been going through this for the past six days and I need to make a decision if I want this person in my life or to just walk away. I've been told that if I just walk away that I'm making a mistake. Hmmm would I be making a mistake? It would be a decision I have to live with. If I made it i'd be ok with it. I'm not going to waver back and forth on it. I'm just trying to figure out am I being extra. Will this happen again? I know why it happened but I don't think a lie needed to be told. Ahhh decisons decisions.

Decisions Decisions Decisions

I said I would write my review of Black In America on Friday and today is now Monday and no review. I will write it on Wednesday since I'm trying to blog three days a week now. Plus I feel like I have other pressing issues to deal with.

Last week I was selected to attend a Lunch and Learn that was scheduled for today. It's thrown by the Black Women's Leadership Group at my job. When you see something from them you have to immediately jump on it or it will fill up. So, I got the email and sent it in my rsvp. All in all only 20 people were selected and I'm happy I was one of them. They had two Managing Director's speak one black and one white. They happened to both be promoted to MD the same year. The topic was on Mentorship and Sponsorship but it turned to other topics. The women at the table were incredibly candid in their questions and answers. In case some of you don't know. Having a title of Managing Director is huge in the financial circle. There are very few black MD's and even fewer black women MD's. I think there's like 20 for the company I work for and I work for a big azz company.

One of the things one of the women said is "you have to create your own destiny" and that statement really resonated with me. I've been thinking about this in both my professional and personal life. My job is stagnant and I don't think I will be able to move up with the group I'm in. I keep getting paid more money but it's really satisfying for me. I thought for a minute that I keep taking the paper and do the same stagnant job but it it's not working. I am good at my job and very knowledgeable. Hell I know more shyt then people who are above me and I know more about what the other groups are doing. I could go to any job in my department and do well but that doesn't matter. They're not trying to get rid of their talent so there's no transferring. I would so like to go to the product side. Of course not many blacks are there. I think I may have to leave this company and go somewhere else to be more full filled.

Don't get me wrong. I am so blessed to have a job in this economy and being in the field I'm in. I have plenty of friends who have lost their jobs and I see my department shrinking before my eyes. I've been thinking about this for awhile and now is the time. I came into this field in a very unconventional way and it's always a great topic in interviews. I don't know why I'm a little gun shy on this. I have no kids and no debt. I have a substantial savings, parents and siblings who support my unconventional moves even though they don't always agree but they understand. I am a risk taker and always have been. I've never lacked confidence. So now is the time I HAVE TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF AND IN MY NEXT MOVE! I believe it will be a big one.

I guess this coincides with me and the moves I made in my personal life. The Teacher and I have been in limbo for the past year. We had a serious heart to heart on Sunday. I told him I can't continue to have a half ass relationship. . I eventually want to get married and have a kid. I can't help that you have issues about your dad and your scared you'll turn out like him. If you're not like him now what's going to change? While I appreciate him not wanting to be like a man he has issues with. I'm not trying to sit around and wait forever. It was a very deep conversation some things were said that hurt on both sides but it was needed. I finally found out how he truly feels about me and how he envisions our future together. So for now we'll see how this progresses.

WHAT did you say?

This last week has not been good. But I guess I can't complain too much because I'm still breathing and I'm thankful for that.

Last Friday I woke up with what seemed like "swimmers ear" that feeling that water is stuck in your ear and I couldn't figure out why my ear felt like that since I haven't been in a pool in at least a year. So I tried to chew gum and yawn and it didn't work. So when I came to work I took my azz to the PA and she inspected my ear and said it looked like my eardrums were swollen and were covered in mucus. It was almost like a reverse sinus infection instead of in your sinus cavity the mucus was draining thru your ears. Yuck I know. So she told me to take Sudafed B every 4 hours for the weekend. I did this and by Sunday my ear was feeling better. I stopped hearing myself talk. By Monday afternoon I had a slight ringing in my ear again and the muffled sound was back. Tuesday morning I went back to the PA and she said that my ear was still cloudy but she wanted me to stop taking the Sudafed and immediately go see an ENT.

I go see the ENT and he inspects my ear and tells me that he thinks I have Eustachian tube dysfunction(tube is chronically open and that's why I hear myself talk) but I told him how I went completely deaf in my left ear when I was 13 for 5 months and that led him to do further test. As of now I have lost 30% of my hearing in my left ear and they have no idea why.They also don't know if I will ever regain that 30%. They think I have nerve damage from a viral infection or I could have had an inner ear stroke(who would have thought) or worst case scenario it's a tumor sitting on my auditory nerve. If that's the case it's very difficult to treat. For now I'm on steroids till next Friday when I go see the ENT. The week after I go see an Neuro-Otologist. I will be getting Cat Scans, MRI's and anything else I need to rectify this problem. If need be there is a specialist in Houston that my sister and mom have already been in touch with and I will go there for treatment and just deal with my insurance later.

Needless to say my week has been pretty funky. I told the Teacher about it and just when I think I want to knock his azz out he does some real sweet shyt. LOL! He kept asking what time I was leaving work and if I was going straight home. When I got off the train he was standing there(seeing his face was exactly what I needed at the moment). He came to my house and we sat around, chilled and laughed for about 3 hours. Some days he drives me to the point where I want to drop kick him in his chest(like today) and then other days I want to lick his chocolaty 12 pack!

Thanks to Tiffany"Smarty" Jones for keeping me in your prayers and my bff Susanna who calls me repeatedly and to Olisa for asking me a million times last night "Can you hear this?" Bwaaaaaaaahahha! I had to tell her I've only lost 30% in one ear fool! LOL!

Mid Year Review on Goals

Below are the goals I posted back in January for myself! Guess what. I haven't completed NOT ONE OF THESE GOALS! It's a damn shame! I'm so disappointed in myself!
1.I mean damn I couldn't even keep my word to God! It's never too late so I will read the Bible(I'm just six months late in starting) But dammit I will read it! I can't let God down!

2. I did one volunteer program! I really suck! I'm doing some things at work and helping people who've been out of the job market for awhile. I will be reviewing their resumes and conducting mock interviews! Most of the people are former welfare recipients.

3.Hmm well can't lose weight Shell when you're too busy partying! Needless to say I haven't lost any weight but not gained either.

4.Tithe more. Can't tithe if you don't take your ass to church! I didn't go to church the entire month of June! I SUCK! But I did do bedside baptist and tithed one time! I went to church this past Sunday and tithed! I must go the remainder of July!

5.Toastmasters---yeah right! Only thing I've been toasting is my damn Vodka!

6.Decide if I'm going to business school! Yep, I want to go but am doing nothing to make it happen! I need to take Calculus since I haven't taken it in 5 years! You think I signed up for a summer class. Hell no, I'm too busy partying! I'm the worst! I WILL BE IN SCHOOL IN THE FALL TAKING ALL MY PRE-REQ'S!

7.Never bought my flat screen! That's out of pure laziness! And me saying I don't watch as much tv in the summer! I will buy one by the time College Basketball starts! Go Heels!

8.I haven't ran a single 5k! I still have time!

9.Blog three times a week! I have failed miserably at this!

This weekend was my last weekend going out they way I have! I have been completely out of control In the last 6 weeks I think I've spent $2500 on going out and eating out! That is damn ridiculous! I'm not wanting for money but that loot could be in my ING account or spending money for Barcelona! I'm very disappointed in my behavior thus far for the year! Out of 9 goals I've completed 1! Fricken ONE! I WILL DO BETTER!

MY ORIGINAL GOALS:
1.Read the Bible- I found a chart that shows you how to read the Good Book in a year! I've already slipped up but I had to play catch up. I can't play around with the man upstairs!

2.Volunteer- When I lived in DC I always tutored kids in reading and math. I coached track and field Special Olympics! Since moving to NYC I haven't participated in any of this..*sigh* I have my interview next week for BigBro BigSis, I also want to find a program where I check on elderly people once a week!

3.Lose 10 lbs- this isn't really necessary but I just feel like I need to drop these 10. I've put on 10 in the last year. Most of it is muscle but I feel like it's a little too heavy for me! All my weight goes to my booty. My stomach is flat as hell! LOL! I guess I shouldn't complain. Some chicks would die for ass!

4.Tithe more- I do tithe but it's not as much as I should be giving.

5.Take a career development class. I am terrified to speak in front of people! I need Toastmasters...lol!

6.Decide if I'm going to apply to Business School. Lawd this is HUGE! If I do this I'm going to the full time program and will quit my job! In my head I know I can do this. I have no bills but basics. Gas, electric, phone. But I will have to dip into my savings and I don't want to!

7.Buy a flat screen- LOL! I know this shouldn't be a goal but I hate spending money on electronics! I'm buying one next week!

8.Run at least 3 5K's. Possibly one 10k.

9. Blog at a minimum of three times a week!

Yes, I'm a slacker

I've slacked all week on blogging! I thought I'd do better because I was on a roll of blogging three times a week! But I failed miserably! I have my reasons though. I've been trying to plan this birthday party I'm throwing for myself and my sister and nephew flew in on Wednesday and I had some MAJOR cleaning to do! But I promise I'll do better. Next week is my birthday week so I'm going to try and post at least 4 times! Pray for me y'all!

*Side note* My 14 year old nephew, Darian told me yesterday how much he loved me and this has been the best trip! Ahh the little things that make you smile! Have a good weekend everyone. I'm off to Baltimore and DC to meet the rest of the fam for the weekend!

Couldn't tell you why...

I'm back from my two week hiatus! So long for blogging three times a week! I don't even know why I was taking a break. I had a ton of thoughts but never wrote them down! I've just been plain lazy! I get up, work out, go to work then come home. The only thing that I've put a ton of effort into lately is working out!

This weekend was so uneventful. Friday I went to Tarjay. Friday evening is a great time to go there. It was empty as hell! I picked up a few things and headed home. I had a disagreement with the Teacher(what else is new). He told me that we couldn't go out for Valentine's Day because he was now going to the All-Star game in Phoenix. I wasn't mad because this boy LOVES basketball and he had a chance to go out for the weekend and see some old college friends(he went to Arizona State). I just got pissed because I feel like I was the last one he told when I should have been on top of the list! He was so pissed at me that he hung up the phone on me and he NEVER does that. Man, I was IRATE by now so I called him back. Of course he didn't answer so I left some lunatic message and called his ass again this time he picked up we had more words than I told him to shut the hell up because I wanted to say my side. He told me he had to get on his flight and so we hung up. I felt bad cause I didn't want him flying across the country and we're in an argument. I called him back but his phone was off so I left three long ass messages just telling him where I was with all this shyt He called me at 9am it was 6am in Phoenix and he told me that he understand what I said and he was wrong and how much he cares. That made me feel better but we still got A LOT to sort out!
Saturday I went to work out and grocery shopping. By the way who the hell spends $200 at the store and lives alone....ME! Later on I went out to dinner with my girl then came home. Sunday I went to church and had my pajamas on by 1pm. Today I went to the gym and came home. This was a pretty chill, uneventful weekend and I loved just being home!

This is how I feel right now.....

Hopefully I will feel better soon! I'm about 5 seconds from the deepend!