Jambalaya

What up people? I've been MIA yet again. I swear I'm going to try and really blog more. I think about it and then life happens. Lord KNOWS I have a lot of shit to say!

Anyway from my previous post my cousin's party was a success even with the dumb ass shit his sister was pulling. When she got here I was calm and she decided to defer shit to me because it MADE DAMN SENSE! He was surprised and everyone had fun.

I ran into "The Teacher" there because he helped me reach out to all the other teachers. It was good seeing him and he's still a cutie but there's no feelings on my part any longer(too much bullshit over a three year period). Although my friends say there was feeling on his part...lol! He danced with me all night! Awww!

That same night my debit card was phished and someone wiped out my entire bank account! Can you say PISSED! Raggedy ass Bank of America shut my shit down the week before for spending $49 on household items in Target and $36 at the grocery store but didn't shut off my card on 3 separate transactions at Target in STAMFORD, CT? Not to mention Macy's in White Plains, NY, Boston Market, Popeye's(this from the black person who's LEAST favorite meal is chicken)purchasing a metro card and a few other places! It caused holy hell for a few days!

I'm really getting tired of some people. I'm slowly deleting people from my circle for doing DUMB SHIT! I just can't take it!!

My sister moved to Denver from Dallas on Saturday. She said she got about 7 bloody noses due to the altitude change! My nephew and BIL are still living in Dallas until June! She's happy and sad...lol!

So George W. Bush thinks that what Kanye said about him not caring about black people is the lowest point of his presidency! Umm what about Katrina(the REASON why he said it). 9/11 comes to mind, the financial crisis,the war in Iraq. I just came up with FOUR low points of W's presidency and he comes up with what Kanye said about him! You W were a jackass then and your a jackass now! Fo Real!

I'm on SERIOUS workout mission. I got on the scale and I'm the HEAVIEST I've EVER BEEN! I don't look obese I'm just too heavy for my liking! I PROMISE IT WILL BE GONE BY JAN.13, 2011! I'm far too vain for this shit!

I need to make some moves SOON! Personally and professionally definitely the latter needs to be NOW!

I'm going to see HIS PURPLE MAJESTY on Dec.15! I CAN'T FRICKEN WAIT! People who know me in real life know that I LOVE him! I don't think it will be as dope as the Vegas show but it WILL BE DOPE!

I've been a reading machine lately! I've read 5 books in a month. What I need to be doing is reading all the damn magazines I subscribe to! *sigh*

Damn! Charlie Rangle was convicted on ethics charges...SHOCKER! When you walk out of your own hearing what the hell do you think is going to happen?

What's going on random with you guys?

Happy Birthday to me!!!

As usual i'm late. My birthday was June 28. I gave myself a kick ass rooftop party on Saturday and flew to Costa Rica on Monday. I've been here for a day and it's beautiful and just what I needed. I'm sitting in this beautiful upgraded room they gave me sippin on some champagne and eating strawberries! Ahh they made me feel special!

On another note. The Teacher came to my bday party and FINALLY got it right! He gave me two cards,one handwritten note and a pair of GUCCI sunglasses. I didn't really need the glasses but they're nice as hell! The note was so thoughtful. He basically said how much he loves me but can't express himself! *sigh* The African was there too but I played it off good! LOL! I'm a pimp! Hehehe!

Anyway I hope everyone enjoys their week and has a happy and safe 4th of July! I know I will be drinking,chillin or zip lining thru the rainforest!

I Keep Slippin...

Why do I keep talking to this man? In my post on January 7. I stated that me and The Teacher were over and it had to stop. I siad my heart and my head were both in the same place. I swear y'all that's what I think. If that's so true why did I go to dinner with him on Saturday evening? He called and asked me if I'd like to meet him at our favorite spot for dinner. I said sure! WTF??? I must say I wasn't all warm and fuzzy inside when I saw him but when we were about to sit and he took off his jacket! LAAAAAWD HAVE MERCY! His shoulders look so delicious and I know what was underneath that sweater. He works out all the time and his abs look like this.

I will say that I didn't even have the urge to rub up on his stomach. Because lawd knows I love touching that washboard! LOL! Anyway our dinner was cool and we had good conversation. Neither one of us brought up our seperation. I had no intention on talking about it because I wanted a casual dinner and didn't want to go to the F_uitlist's party in a bad mood. I went out on a date with some dude that showed a tiny bit of promise but that's a NO go(That's a story for another day), I'm still going to continue to keep my options open but can't help but be slightly curious about The Teacher and his actions!
He always tells me I'm his Nina and he's my Darrius. Could that be true?

Monday Musings

I don't want to see another margarita for at least two weeks! Between Friday and Saturday I consumed at least 20 of them!

I had French food Friday and Saturday. While it was excellent at both places I don't want anymore for awhile!

I love NYC but I really think it's time to start planning my exit.

I didn't love living in Houston but I sure loved my 2500 sq.ft house. I also miss Mica and Tam. Those two are my peoples! I liked eating or getting up with them once a week. I don't have anyone here that truly knows me. I have lots of acquaintances but no peeps.

My mom got out of the hospital 8 days early. Now we're all moving our travel plans around to accommodate her. I will be going home to help my dad on August 27.

Tomorrow is my brain MRI. Hopefully this will help with an accurate diagnosis of what is going on with my ear/hearing loss. For the last month I've been to the doctor an average of 3x/week. This is when I wish my peeps were around. Although I am thankful for the Teacher he has been superb! He more nervous then I am...lol!

Exactly 30 days from today I leave for Spain and Italy! I CAN'T WAIT! When I'm in Italy I think I'm going to buy myself some hot ass shoes! Hell I know I'm going to buy some!

I can't stand when people call/text or email you a question. You answer them back and ask something and they don't respond. I guess I'd be an ass if I just didn't respond to their initial question right?

My ex-fiance' is getting married on Saturday and I'm truly happy for him. Just in case I feel a ting of sadness on Saturday. I have an action packed day and evening planned...lol!

I'm probably one of the only people that isn't hooked on Twitter. I just don't give a damn that much about what people are doing! I took that shyt off my phone and I look at it occasionally at home! Am I missing anything? NOPE!

I'm still falling short on all my goals! *sigh* I have time for the 5k's but I think the reading the Bible before the year is up is not going to happen. Also I don't think I'm going to hit my $20k goal! I've been spending money like a crazy person.

Why did a dude expect to get my number yesterday after he just stated he just got out of jail! Then proceeded to tell a story about shooting a dude in the face(yes dude is dead) then said he tried to kill dudes family. AND you want my number! GTFOH SON! I was offended that he would even ask that ridiculous ass question. The look on my face.......PRICELESS!

The Teacher graduates in May maybe December with his Master's in Education. He wants to go to Greece next summer for 10 days. I'm so down for that! Hope he doesn't think I'm paying...lol! I got $300 on it for you! bwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahah!

Oh yes. The Teacher also told me that he was considering becoming a vegetarian. I looked him dead in his face and said good luck with that! Shiiiiiit I ain't giving up beef or pork for no damn body! He can come over for dinner when I make my grilled portobello burgers or lentil soup! If you think I'm taking that path with you you're sadly mistaken! Meat didn't do shit to me! LOL!

Feeling some kind of way

So some of you may know that I have an on off love affair with the Teacher. For those of you that are new. I give a brief recap of our relationship! He and I are very compatible on so many levels but he has some fears and issues he needs to work on in order for our relationship to be successful. He's an all around good dude, doesn't cheat, lie, rarely goes out or drinks.One of our main problem is he thinks that I have a smart azz mouth...which I do but I do try and work on it. And it irks the hell out of him but when he does shyt that makes NO sense to me I call him on it and sometime he sees it as me being a know it all. Also his family is soo emotionally draining on him that it leaves NO room for anything else. He's the youngest by 8 yrs and he acts like he's the oldest. His siblings act like they're helpless and can't do shyt! He feels an obligation to them because his mom passed away when he was 11 and his sister raised him but damn she's now 43 and she's a mess! Good job, NO money,drug addicted husband,22 year old daughter living in her house with her 2yro and her own 6yro daughter. The sister blames EVERYTHING on the husband but does NOTHING to try and make her life better! If I wrote everything y'all would tell me to just write a short story because that's what the eff it is! Anyway, The Teacher grew up in a very rough part of BK and never got in trouble earned a full basketball scholarship to Arizona State. He had a few tryouts with the Hawks and Jazz but through the physical examination found out he has a degenerative hip disorder so since his NBA dreams were smashed he went and played overseas for a few years and then came back when the hip problem became to bad to play! So that's why he's a teacher. But he loves it and is almost finished with his Master's in Education. I know I'm all over the place..lol! We took a big break last year and I went out with a couple other people but I always had the Teacher on my mind! We speak EVERYDAY. He is the first person I speak to in the morning and last one at night! He does anything thing for me and I do the same for him. We had a discussion and we both want to get back together but I think we're both unsure. He has abandonment issues due to his mom dying when he was so young and since he's so nice the last girl did a number on him. I hope I'm not making him sound like a punk because he's not! Far from it. He actually checks the hell out of me! LOL!

So, the reason I'm feeling some kind of way is. The Teacher has always wanted to coach at a collegiate level but he wanted to finish his Master's first. So, the first day of the NCAA tournament he's watching Texas Tech play on tv and sees his old assistant coach on the bench. He freaks out because he lost contact with him, so he goes on Texas Tech's website and finds him and sends him an email. Well dude responds saying how he's an assistant coach there blah blah blah. Fast forward to last Wednesday. Coach calls Teacher at 10:30am asking him if it's possible for him to get on a 9:30pm flight to interview Thursday morning at 9am with the head coach(who happens to be Bobby Knight's son). The Teacher calls me and tells me that he can't come out with me on Thursday because of this! I'm screaming into the phone. I'm so excited for him!! Because I know that this is a great opportunity for him! But when reality set in. I felt so sad because I know there's a possibility of him leaving! We've discussed how I wanted to leave NYC next year. While I love living here I can't afford to buy shyt but my damn apt. I grew up in a house and when I left Houston to come here I was living in a 5br 3000sq ft house! *sigh* Anyway it was always known that I was rolling in 2010 but now he might leave. I feel some kind of way! I think because the last two months we have really been putting in effort with each other! So, the interview went well and he finds out Friday if he will be part of Texas Tech's bball team! We haven't discussed this but I can tell that it has hit him the way it's hitting me! I know whatever happens happens. If we're supposed to be then we will be.

I know this post was all over the place but that's how I feel right now!