Tuesday, May 27, 2008

My Liver, My Life

I'm baaaaack fam! I know no one missed me...YET! I thought about abandoning this blog but thanks to Kyle over at 12Planet I'm going to keep on going!! I actually didn't mean to disappear for a week but it just worked out like that!
I've had a lot of extra time on my hands since me and the "beefcake" seperated so I've been going to the gym and hitting A LOT of happy hours. Happy hours are meant to last for a couple of hours right? Nope, not when I go. I went out Wednesday and got home at 3:45am and had to get up at 7:00...wtf?? Thursday dinner with an out of town friend I got home at 2:30am and woke up at 7:00am!We were able to leave work Friday at 3:00....yup you guessed it took my azz directly to happy hour and had my first cocktail by 3:45! Of course I went out for the remainder of the weekend and the earliest I got home was 1:30 and that was because we started drinking at 1:30pm.....I love NY but dammit I love my liver too! The poor thing is screaming "Set me free!"

I'm sure I wouldn't be doing all this going out if I was still with "Mr. Beefcake" I nicknamed him that because his body is LIKE THAT! I really miss this boy and some of our seperation is my fault and I'm woman enough to take my share of the blame. He still is the first person I speak to in the morning and the last person I speak to before I go to bed. If I'm out he always answers (even if it's late) to get my call that I made it home safely but for now we're just not a match. He has some attachment issues and he told me that until he deals with them he will never be a good boyfriend, husband or father. It's not about another woman but the woman before me cheated on him and when he was 11 his mother died suddenly so he never really got over the loss. He says he knows that I'm the one for him and that he wants to be with me but he has to get over the issues. He also stated that he understands that during this separation if I meet someone else that is the consequence he has to deal with. Man, I tell y'all he is the nicest,most sincere, considerate man I have ever dealt with. He extends himself to me, his family and friends and asks nothing in return. My dilemma is I know he didn't ask me to wait for him to work out his issues but I think that's what I'm. I've been on a couple of dates but seriously I think I went because I didn't feel like cooking when I got home....lmao! So,I'm sitting at the table looking a fool thinking would this dude just shut the f*ck up!! I get asked out at least once a week but I'm always like no thanks! Some of my "money hungry" friends are like "girl do you know what he does?" "He makes 6 figures a couple times over" "So" is my answer. Money does not make you happy it's who you're with! Mr. Beefcake is a middle school teacher and I'd take him over $300,000 any day! I'm so confused! When I started writing this post this isn't the direction I wanted it to take but ohh well!

10 comments:

Mizrepresent said...

FIRST!

Hey Shelly, my first time here via 12kyle...girl your week sounds like mine...i have been out every night since Friday and getting in after 2am too! I think i drank a liquor store...I love NYC! And girl, we don't choose who we love, love chooses...and that's the dayum hard truth...keep your head up, and have another one on me!

Mizrepresent said...

BTW, the trick to getting visitors is you have visit other people's blogs and leave comments, then you add them to your blogroll and you are off and rolling, because they add you, and you know just like a bad rumour it spreads!

The F$%K it List said...

Hey first time here! I'm with Mizrepresent on this Love has a way of bringing people into our lives and no matter what we do they are here to stay.

I'll be back so keep them coming and welcome to the bloggersphere.

The F$%K it List said...

uhmmm one more thing, is this the fort knox of blogging, word verification is the worst! HAHAH

12kyle said...

@ ShellyShell
Good to see that you're still bloggin'. Don't worry about people comin thru. They will. Trust me. Miz has offered some good advice and it works. You comment on folks blog and they'll do the same for you. My motto is to blog about what you feel. People are gonna read it.

Sounds like y'all have something good. Doesn't sound like a reason to be separated. Maybe I'm missin sumthin'??? I wouldn't tell any woman to wait for me but it sounds like y'all should be together.

ShellyShell said...

@Mizrepresent...Thanks so much for stopping by! I will be sure to holla at you! I've been in the streets so much I can barely read blogs! I was trying to chill out this week but looks like I'll be going to happy hour tommorrow and a wine tasting on Thursday! I'm the worst! I'm trying to learn this blog thing, having a blog roll, links etc. I'm going to learn this week!

@the f$%k it list....thanks for stopping by! I know you can't help who you love but shyt! This needs to get better!!! Yeah I hate word verification also! I'm going to change that I'm still trying to grasp this shyt! Once again thanks for stopping by!!

@12Planet....Our relationship is or shall I says was pretty good! I have a habit of saying shyt before I think so he is so mild mannered that my mouth upsets him! He is a good person but he has the abandonment issues! What can you do! If it's in God's plans for us that's how it will be!
Thanks again for shouting me out....people our starting to come..Yeahhhh!!

Dione said...

I'm with you on the money issue. If a millionaire was in my face, I'd look the other way if that beefcake middle school teacher is what made me smile at the beginning... and end of the day. Since I teach middle school, Imma hafta root for you to keep the teacher! Patience my sista...

12kyle said...

@ShellyShell
"I have a habit of saying shyt before I think"...I think that goes for most of us. Love usually prevails over everything else. Just don't give up on each other and you'll be ok.

Mizrepresent said...

Dang, i really need to be where you are, wine-tasting, happy hour, i so heart you, lol!

12kyle said...

LOL @ Miz
I feel you. Wine tasting would be very good right now.