Monday, September 29, 2008

Trying to get up

I haven't felt like blogging let alone doing shyt. I get up go to work, go to the gym and go home. I barely talk on the phone(although I think I made up for my lack of talking on the phone last night. I was on the phone until 4am!)I'm in such a funky azz mood which is soo unlike me! I'm always the one that's upbeat, fun, life of the party. Now, I barely want to be at the party! There are a few reasons that are dragging me into this funk:

1. Not feeling my job. It pays the bills but I've gone as far as I can. I realize that people are just doing the same shyt they were doing when they first started and it's ok for them but not for the kid! I've been here a little over two years and I think I need to start planning to move on up. The main concern is I want to completely leave this field. I need to research how to go about this which leads to my second funk.

2.Going back to school. I've been wanting to go to business school for the past few years but I've yet to take the GMAT(what the f&ck am I waiting for?)this is the year that I thought I would take it and now the economy decides it wants to tank so the applications for buisness school will be up at least 60% *sigh*. I want to go full time too. Quit this beyatch and get my full time study on! I really don't have any bills. No student loans(thanks mom and dad)car is paid off. Just misc bills, gas, light, cable and shoes! The more I've been thinking. I think that I should probably take the LSAT to cover both sides and apply for a JD/MBA program. So, when I'm finished I will be a motherf*ckin force! So, you ask what is my problem why am I just sitting on my ass? If you find the answer please let me know! I have all the books. I'm just not motivated to study. But I know I want to do this! What the eff is holding me back?

3.Relationship. I firmly believe when something makes you fall it's all about the bounce back. Three years ago I was on track to get married have family etc. I moved to Houston from DC to start that chapter of my life. When that relationship was over. I swear I never felt that kind of devestation. I left with my car packed to the rim and sent boxes to my parents house and set off for the Big Apple. I had no job, just my cousin and some college friends. I came here on faith. I felt if I can make it in NY I can make it anywhere. It's been three years and it was a hard road for the first three months but I managed to get a dope azz apt in Bed-Stuy and met some pretty good friends. I've dated here and there but I've been leary until I met "The Teacher" We both have our flaws but he's genuine, kind, funny and sexy!(Having a 8 pack is ALWAYS nice to we just can't get it right. It has nothing to do with cheating or any triflin thing like that! His damn family drama is DEEP! And he has the save the world mentality! I give this background because I haven't been moved by someone like this since the dude I was going to marry! A month ago The Teacher and I called it quits. He told me that my mouth was reckless(I do pop mad shyt)and he was going to bring me all my shyt. He was suppose to bring it all to me on September 28. Needless to say I'm still waiting for it! I really just want my pan! Last Tuesday he called me out of the blue. I looked at the phone like it was crazy when it was ringing! We haven't spoke verbally in a month just a few text! So to my surprise he calls me and tells me in this round about way that he was shedding the family drama cause it was causing him to lose everything and it was taking everything thing out of him. I just sat there and let him talk then he asked if I could help him do something. I was like ARRRUUUUU? Me? He said yes, you're the only person I want to help me. I said ohhh! The entire hour convo he never mentioned our break up, nothing! Then he called me the next morning at 7:33 to tell me something that happened in his family cause he said he knew I'd get it and could appreciate it. Again nothing about the break up! Friday rolls around he text me a few times then asked if I was watching the debates then proceeds to call me...heyy wait a minute now! I told him I had to call him back because I was out for dinner and drinks. About four hours pass and he calls me back and ask if I was ok and if I made it home. I told him I'd be home in 20 minutes and called him back. I talked to him from 1:43-3:30 about the state of black marriages. WTF? We talked briefly on Saturday..yet another family crisis. I know wtf? Yesterday we spoke like three times and text like 20 times. By yesterday's convo I came to the conclusion that he's trying to get back in...slowly! But he can't come back without a long talk. Man, I don't know why I have this thing for him. I can't shake his azz!I had a chance to get back with the dude I was going to marry and said nope. And I thought he was the love of my life but I think the Teacher will leave a bigger impact than him. In the past I'm known to be like peace and keep it moving but I have a soft spot for The Teacher. *sigh*

Kyle what are your thoughts as a!

Sorry for the long drawn out post.

Monday, September 22, 2008


This is some random ish that either happened to me or I have observed or thougght over the last week.

I'm on the train and there's white lady about 45-50. She was crackish looking. She had on blue scrubs with paint splashes a tee shirt that says "Hot Girls Vote" and a zip up hoodie that says "Soulja Boy Tellum". Words cannot explain how hard I was laughing at this ish!

Dude with a big azz neck brace on kept giving me the "come get em eyes" For real so I can drop kick you in your neck and have you in straight traction!

Dude says to me "I think I know you" I said no you don't. I have seen him around the neighborhood before. The bullshyt started. "Man, I like the fire in your eyes ma, that says to me independent" Oh word cause they're about to shoot fire in about 30 seconds! This fool says I like independent women cause I'm independent...WTF? Then he says you look like you work out. We can go to the park and run together. At this point I say my bf wouldn't like that. He says oh I just want to be friends. Then proceeds to tell me about how some chick told him that she just wanted to be friends and next thing he knows they're effin. *crickets* I just walked away. He yells I guess we can't be friends! I guess not!

Why the F%&k did I have to be at work this morning at 7:30! I usually don't get here until 9:30-10:00. I get out of the shower at 8:45! Not happy!

I hate dudes that have beards that look like little "Nigga Naps" that real coarse curly tight hair. YUCK! When I see a dude that has that shyt on his face the only thing that I can think about is that they have dirty nuts! Example of dirty nut or stank nut dudes...Shawn Kemp...blahhh his nuts just look stank and hot! Charles Oakley..stink nuts! Definition of stink or dirty nuts is even if you take a shower there is no cleaning up the nut area! Just STANK!

To me Keisha Cole looks like she has stank coochie! She just looks dirty to me! I know I'm a weirdo but oh well!

I still haven't spoke to "The Teacher" it's kind of upsetting to me! I thought we were better than this! He does text me periodically. When we had our beef a few weeks back he did tell me that he was bringing over my stuff immeadiately. I have yet to see it!

I think I have a ghost in my house. My toothbrush was moved and then put back in the same place. I walked around yesterday with a butcher knife! LMAO like I was going to stab the ghost! bwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahaha!

Why the eff did my sister, her stupid azz husband and my 13year old nephew just show up at my older nephew's dorm room yesterday morning? I called my nephew just to say hey and he said "my mom's here" I said, "oh she came to visit" He said "yep, and I wasn't expecting them" I could here in his voice that he was tight! I said,"oh she called you from outside" He was like "nah, I woke up to a knock on the door" I said "WTF?" I told my sister I hope the next time you do that he has a chick laid up in the bed. Anytime my sister tells me she is going to visit him I'm telling him. He's such a good kid and who the hell wants your fam just doing random pop ups. They had to drive over 2 hours to get there too! The sad thing is dumb and dumber felt like that was ok!

Why the hell did someone just send an email stating that they need some data by the end of business today. I politely said it wouldn't happen. I know the routine they didn't just find out they needed that data today at 10:30. I'm sure they knew last week and chose not to say shyt. Well, they won't get shyt from me today!

That "So Fly" song by Slim and Young Joc is FIYAH!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

This is how I feel right now.....

Hopefully I will feel better soon! I'm about 5 seconds from the deepend!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

No Mimosas for me...:(

So Saturday I had a chance to meet up with some fabulous ladies. They all had unlimited mimosas but I couldn't drink or eat a thing due to foolishness I participated in on Friday evening. I have not experienced a hangover like that in YEARS! I couldn't keep anything down until 11:00pm! I promise ladies the next time we meet ShellyShell will be sippin on mimosas with you!!! Yeah Eb, I jacked you for the picture!!

BTW: I put it down in the kitchen tonight. I made Chicken and Dumplings! I put my foot in them beyatches! LMAO!!

Monday, September 1, 2008

Weekend wrap up

I have a lot of shyt to say but not much in the mood to write. So here's some random shyt!

OMG I forgot to tell y'all I ran into "The Hammer" on Friday. I went to a spot called Fashion 40 and he was in there. I saw him and just rolled my eyes. This dude decides it was a smart idea to try and get close to me. So, he starts talking to a girl that was standing close to me and my crew then he moves to the bar where I'm standing so his back is up against my back. This mfer had the nerve and audacity to try and move back...Y'all I killed his kidney! Then he thinks it's smart to turn around and try and squeeze in between me and my homegirl(he's not a small dude like 6'4" and 230) she was like dude this is not a good look and he's all smug and still tries to talk to me. I said I have NOTHING to say to you and you need to get to stepping, he's still trying to talk to me and laugh and reach out. Needless to say I went CLEAN THE F$CK OFF!! And mushed him in his face.The mush was called for because he started to invade my personal space. He went and told security on me then I told security the inappropriate comments he had said to me and they told him to stay away from me. My homeboy and his boys came in there and I told them so they went over very professionally and told him to NEVER approach me again. He left 10 minutes later! We left after that then went to a spot called Santos Party room. I recommend this place. Q-Tip and Rich Medina dj'd all night and they played nothing but old school that place was FIYAH!! It was only $10! I danced until 4:30.

Saturday I had to get up and attempt to get a hood hook up on my inspection because I knew that she was going to fail. My boy gave me a hook up. I had to go to a house that looked like it should have been condenmed and pick up a note that said "Take care of my peoples" LMBAO!! Then had to go to the garage and ask for Ahmed. He told me I needed front brakes and gave me a deal. I got brakes,pads and labor for $75. It was worth all the shady! Then I went home and saw a friend of mine and he took me to a little ass restaurant that had room for 6 people with a lady name Jean cooking her ass off. My goodness I got Curry Goat, rice and beans,potatoe salad and a salad for $6. It was soooo much food and soo fricken good! Lawd that's why I love living in Brooklyn!!

Sunday went to church then to brunch and ate by myself because my friends are retarded. I told my homegirl that we were going to brunch at 1:30 and the place was on Union between 6th and 7th. I text her and tell her I'm there she text back and said why. I said to eat brunch she said oh I thought you meant between 6 and 7. *crickets* Who the f&ck eats brunch between 6 and 7. My other girl is the one who text me at 9am for brunch and she doesn't show up until Needless to say I had alreday had three mimosas and my eggs benedict. Ugghghgh! After we went to Habana Outpost and chilled out for awhile. While at Habana I had a chance to finally meet The F$%k It List and her cute son, CJ, her sister and niece!She couldn't stay long but I will see her again on Saturday for the bloggers brunch!
After that my homeboy showed up and wanted to go to Sugarcane and get Oxtails so we rolled out and went and had Oxtails, shrimp roti and jerk chicken. The oxtails were delicious. You can always tell the way Trinis make their oxtails and roti compared to Jamaicans. After we went back and met my homegirls at Brooklyn Moon to see what the next spot was. One of my girls decided that she wanted to ride on a bike with one of the million bikers that was out. She called us and told us she was at a bbq we got sidetracked for awhile and met her three bbq's later. There were so many people and a ton of streets were blocked off due to the West Indian day parad today and it was Juve last night. We had to park the car and my girl had to send three bikers to come and get me and my girls since it was easier for bikers to wean through traffic. Man, we got to this party and there had to be at least 1000 people. Soca music blastin, jerk burnin in the yard and people just dancing! I got home this morning at 6:52! My people decided that they wanted to go to the parade and to come by my house since I live the closet to the parade. It was sooo damn hot on the Pkwy and had too many people. I haven't been to the west indian parade in years and even though I live around the corner I had no desire to go! I had to park my car in a whole nother section of BK because of all the parking restrictions. But I succombed to peer pressure and went for an hour. Then took my people back to the small ass restaurant. They all had jerk chicken, mac and cheese, rice and peas and oxtails and were sucking the bones so I take it the food was good!

So, that's my weekend and I'm absolutely EXHAUSTED!!!

Oh yeah. What do you y'all think about Sarah Paulin's 17 year old daughter being preggo? I find it to be quite interesting!