Attitude

I had an ex boyfriend who would always say "Your attitude determines your altitude." This quote makes so much sense to me. If you're going to have a stink azz attitude you're not going to get very far. Be it your job, relationships or life in general. I think all of us have needed a little bit of attitude adjustment. I know I have. My mom used to tell me as a child that "My mouth and attitude would over power my azz!" I still laugh about that to this day. Because not only did she tell me that but her hand or belt was stingin my azz!

Last week I was at the gym I was taking a strength and conditioning class. The instructor asked someone to please remove their IPod so they could hear the instruction and know the proper form to lift the weights etc. You would have thought the instructor told this chick that she was fat and ugly the way this chick carried on. She was snapping her head, rolling her eyes and sucking her teeth. Now was all that shyt necessary? He just asked you to remove your Ipod for HIS class. WTF? I speak to this lady at the gym and I've seen her have attitude with people before for no apparent reason. I also over heard her tell her girlfriend that she was no longer going to class because she missed to many and it didn't matter because her sleep did. Mind you she needs this class to keep her job. So her girl asked her what are you going to do? Attitude chick said umm I guess take it in January.
After I witnessed her attitude with the instructor and heard her say this. I thought of the quote "Your attitude determines your altitude." Because this chick can't go far in life with that attitude. I don't care if she's the smartest person on her team. Her promotions will be few and far in between.

It upsets me because she was black. I think as black people we can do better than that. The "man" isn't always trying to hold us back. With this stink azz attitude you're holding yourself back! I love my people and I want for us to do better as a whole but when you have a stink azz attitude you're not helping ANY of us! I'm far from perfect and I KNOW I can demonstrate major attitude but I also know when to check that shyt!

Do y'all know anyone who has a lot of potential but they're not going far in their job or relationships because of attitude?

It's Been a long time

Since I left you! Without a dope beat to step to! LOL! Ok I'm back for real. I've been back from vacation for two weeks but I've had some issues I had to deal with plus I just was being lazy!

Anyway, my vacation was great! Barcelona was HOT! If y'all go there fly Iberia airlines. The food was good and you got free wine..lol! You just have to watch their azzes because they will change seats on you! Our hotel was great it was in the middle of Las Ramblas(which is where you want to be). The churches were beautiful the food and Sangria were EXCELLENT! I had some great tapas. I tried rabbit ribs(don't knock it to you try it...lol). They were deep fried just like chicken. Lawd they were good! The clubs/lounges don't open until 1am! We arrived around 2 and partied until 7am! The music was better than the music in the clubs here. They played everything from Rakim to Jay's Blueprint 3! After two days in Barcelona it was time to get on the cruise ship.
I'm not a fan of cruises but I agreed to go on this one!

First stop was Malta. Not a lot here but it was pretty. The next stop was Naples. We decided to hire a driver instead of doing an excursion with the ship. We went to Pompeii for two hours and boy was that amazing. I'm a history buff so I loved this. We didn't have a lot of time so I didn't get to see the tombs but I did get to see the amphitheatre and the bathrooms(Romans had plumbing in 187 AD)Amazing!! From there we went to Positano(stunning). It was so beautiful and peaceful. The Amalfi Coast is breathtaking! Then it was on to Sorentto. I had the freshest seafood there! It was like it jumped out of the ocean into my mouth! OMG!! I am definitely going back there and spending at least a week there!

Next stop was Rome. The shyt was so dayum dirty. It reminded me of NYC in the 80's! Graffiti and trash everywhere! I didn't get to see a ton of shyt because the lines were long and everything was spread out! I saw the outside of the Colosseum, Pantheon and St. Peters Square. I will go back here just to see the sights.

Florence was next. If you want to shop this is the place to be. There was SO much shopping to be done here. Florence is known for leather goods. So, I picked up a bag, belts and wallet. Scenery was beautiful here too! Then we headed to the Leaning Tower of Pisa. There isn't ANYTHING in Pisa but the tower. It was cool but I don't need to go back!

Saturday(last day) we went to Cannes. Not much here but some shopping and the ocean. This was the day I chilled on the beach and in the ocean! I was so happy I was actually in the South of France! It was HOT! All the yachts and sexy people. It was a perfect way to end my vacation!!

All in all the vacation was cool. The ship was nice and the food was good. I definitely want to go back to Rome for a couple of days then to the Amalfi Coast to Sorentto and Capri. I can't say enough about Sorentto. I LOVED IT!! I haven't uploaded my pictures yet but when I do I'll do a picture entry!

On Vacation

The time has FINALLY come for my vacation! I'm flying to Barcelona tonite and will be there for the weekend. Tuesday I will be in Malta from there Rome, Florence and Naples. I CAN'T WAIT! I NEED this vacation so bad. While I'm away it will give me time to sort my thoughts on many things going on in my life right now and to take in the landscape of these beautiful places! This will be a fun and relaxing trip but major decisions will be made. My life will probably be very different when I get back!

I hope you guys have a great 10 days without me! Be Safe!

I Know Now

So, I got the results back from my MRI. I have Meniere's Disease, also called idiopathic endolymphatic hydrops which is a disorder of the inner ear. The cause is unknown but it probably results from an abnormality in the fluids of the inner ear. The theory is that too much inner ear fluid accumulates either due to excess production or inadequate absorption. The symptoms are episodic vertigo(I never experienced that)hearing loss(have that)tinnitus(roaring or buzzing in ear...I have this)and a sensation of fullness in the ear(have that).

The doctor I went to is the best Dr. in NYC so I feel confident in his finding but I did get a second opinion and the results were the same. There's not much I can do about it. The treatment for now is a low salt diet(umm I'm black), no caffeine( I can do that)some special type of vitamins and water pills. The pamphlet says no alcohol but my doctor didn't mention that so I'm going to act like I didn't read that...bwaaaaaaaaahhahaha! I always said I'm not going to stop drinking until the doctor tells me I have to! And since he didn't tell me, I ain't stoppin'! LOL! They also found a cyst in my gland in my brain. This has nothing to do with my ear problem *sigh* they just happened to spot it. The cyst is filled with fluid that they believe is benign, so now I have to go to a Neurologist.

Anyway, I feel good. I can hear this week(hearing loss is intermittent)and I think I'll be ok. Thanks to all of you that kept me in your prayers!

Happy Labor Day everyone! I doubt I'll write another post! Y'all know how NYC is Labor Day Weekend is with the West Indian Parade and all the shenanigans that come along with it! Have a great weekend! Be Safe!

Lies Lies Lies

How do you get past the fact that someone extremely close to you lied? In my opinion there's nothing worse than a liar and a thief.

My bf thinks I'm blowing this a little out of proprotion but understands where I'm coming from. I've been going through this for the past six days and I need to make a decision if I want this person in my life or to just walk away. I've been told that if I just walk away that I'm making a mistake. Hmmm would I be making a mistake? It would be a decision I have to live with. If I made it i'd be ok with it. I'm not going to waver back and forth on it. I'm just trying to figure out am I being extra. Will this happen again? I know why it happened but I don't think a lie needed to be told. Ahhh decisons decisions.

Monday Musings

I don't want to see another margarita for at least two weeks! Between Friday and Saturday I consumed at least 20 of them!

I had French food Friday and Saturday. While it was excellent at both places I don't want anymore for awhile!

I love NYC but I really think it's time to start planning my exit.

I didn't love living in Houston but I sure loved my 2500 sq.ft house. I also miss Mica and Tam. Those two are my peoples! I liked eating or getting up with them once a week. I don't have anyone here that truly knows me. I have lots of acquaintances but no peeps.

My mom got out of the hospital 8 days early. Now we're all moving our travel plans around to accommodate her. I will be going home to help my dad on August 27.

Tomorrow is my brain MRI. Hopefully this will help with an accurate diagnosis of what is going on with my ear/hearing loss. For the last month I've been to the doctor an average of 3x/week. This is when I wish my peeps were around. Although I am thankful for the Teacher he has been superb! He more nervous then I am...lol!

Exactly 30 days from today I leave for Spain and Italy! I CAN'T WAIT! When I'm in Italy I think I'm going to buy myself some hot ass shoes! Hell I know I'm going to buy some!

I can't stand when people call/text or email you a question. You answer them back and ask something and they don't respond. I guess I'd be an ass if I just didn't respond to their initial question right?

My ex-fiance' is getting married on Saturday and I'm truly happy for him. Just in case I feel a ting of sadness on Saturday. I have an action packed day and evening planned...lol!

I'm probably one of the only people that isn't hooked on Twitter. I just don't give a damn that much about what people are doing! I took that shyt off my phone and I look at it occasionally at home! Am I missing anything? NOPE!

I'm still falling short on all my goals! *sigh* I have time for the 5k's but I think the reading the Bible before the year is up is not going to happen. Also I don't think I'm going to hit my $20k goal! I've been spending money like a crazy person.

Why did a dude expect to get my number yesterday after he just stated he just got out of jail! Then proceeded to tell a story about shooting a dude in the face(yes dude is dead) then said he tried to kill dudes family. AND you want my number! GTFOH SON! I was offended that he would even ask that ridiculous ass question. The look on my face.......PRICELESS!

The Teacher graduates in May maybe December with his Master's in Education. He wants to go to Greece next summer for 10 days. I'm so down for that! Hope he doesn't think I'm paying...lol! I got $300 on it for you! bwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahah!

Oh yes. The Teacher also told me that he was considering becoming a vegetarian. I looked him dead in his face and said good luck with that! Shiiiiiit I ain't giving up beef or pork for no damn body! He can come over for dinner when I make my grilled portobello burgers or lentil soup! If you think I'm taking that path with you you're sadly mistaken! Meat didn't do shit to me! LOL!

CONFIDENCE

Some have it some don't. I sometimes wonder why people lack confidence. Is it because they didn't have praise in their household growing up? Is it because they just doubt themselves? Or is it just because?

I think I've always been confident. Confidence and self-esteem were taught to me at a young age. Hell it had to be since I was the only black child in my Montessori class. From K-12 their may have been another black kid in my class here and there but once I got into high school barely any. If I ever would have lacked confidence this definitely would have been the time but I never did. People who knew me in my formative years have always told me that I had so much confidence in myself that it almost seemed like arrogance. I didn't know what to tell them then and I don't know what to them now! It's just how I was raised!

At some stage in your life I think everyone lacks confidence. I remember when I was 12 and I wanted to play ball that day. My mom took me to the park and said I'll be back in three hours. I looked at my mom like she was crazy. NO girls played at that park and all the boys that hooped there were at least 6 plus years older than me. My mom looked at me and said "Girl get out of my car. If you want to get better you play with the boys and play hard!" I got out of my car with my ball and slowly moved toward the court as I did this I watched my mom pull off. I so wanted to run away. I saw my brother's best friend who was 12 years older than me and he was like "You gonna run today?" I said "I guess." I got on the court and could barely breathe I was so nervous. I just passed the ball and didn't do much. My brother's friend pulled me aside and said "what the eff are you doing? I know you can play and you have a nice shot. Get out there and show them!" After that I went out there and when I got the ball. I shot and it was all net. Then I started playing "D" hard, boxing out and trying to go up for rebounds. Once I got comfortable and KNEW I could play with the boys my game was on point! I ended up with about 8 fouls(lol) and 12 points. But mostly I ended up believing in me.......CONFIDENCE!


By the way my mom was around the corner watching me and my brother's best friend was in on it!